MY MISTAKE

There are so many things going through my mind right now. I find myself so distracted from the emotions that suddenly spring out of me, from anger to stress to fear to sadness, that I can hardly think straight. I came to a realization tonight; Just because we may believe that we are fully relying on God does not mean that we truly are.
Although that may not seem like a profound statement to you understand that it is one of the easiest things to do without even realizing it. I have been believing that I have been relying on God when in fact I have simply been using that idea to excuse myself from actually taking control of my own life and following any direction that God may be giving me through His word or through my friends. I have been “Relying on God” instead of taking the actions that are required during this step of faith (remember it isn’t a ’step of faith’ if you aren’t actually taking any steps) It has been so easy to simply push worry and stress aside and say that I am “relying on God” when in fact I am simply using that as an excuse to sit on my lazy but and not step out and do what God requires of me.
This being said please learn from this mistake I have made and am now suffering the consequences of. Understand that Relying on God is not just saying words or thinking the thought but it means that, while you are actually working towards what it is you have put in His hands, you are FULLY trusting in Him, realizing that it will either work out in His timing or you will come to where He wanted you to go in the first place.